“This morning I woke up at 4:45 am to make it to my 6am Crossfit class. Our workout was 12.3 from the 2012 Crossfit open; an 18 minute AMRAP of 15 box jumps (20 inches), 12 push press (75 lbs.), and 9 toes to bar. I wanted so badly to do 65lbs because 75 lbs just seemed too hard…but there was no way I was going to let 10 pounds stop me from going RX. I was able to successfully complete 4 rounds plus 28 reps, RX! For me, that was huge! Yesterday, I PRed my 1 rep max power clean at 103 lbs and last week I crossed a major mental bridge by setting a personal record of 160 lbs on my back squat. I can’t help but to stop and think about how far I have come.
I remember the day I walked out of the hospital with my new born baby boy. I weighed 178 lbs at 4’ 11” and blamed it on the pregnancy. Before I was pregnant, I weighed 105 lbs. That was 68 extra pounds that I did not need! I had completely let myself go. I was so use to being able to eat whatever I wanted while I was in high school. I was in cheer and dance and my metabolism was a lot quicker…and I was still eating that way: Sonic, Taco Bell, all you can eat pizza at CiCi’s, you name it! I even went through a phase prior to my pregnancy of being anorexic. After a few months of sitting around, I realized that the weight wasn’t going to just fall off. I knew that I needed to change everything about my life from my eating habits to my energy and activity level. All I can remember thinking was “I want to be skinny again.”
My goal began as something as simple as going for a walk a couple times a week. Cutting out the breakfast burritos and sodas fell in there eventually and then joining a gym. My goal of achieving the body I once had seemed nearly impossible. Although the desire to be skinnier and better was there, I lacked the motivation and the will power.
I slowly started seeing results after trying many things such as weight watchers, vegan, and Jenny Craig. At the gym, I was doing Zumba classes and using the elliptical. This was enough to slowly get me to 130 lbs. I was so disappointed at how much my body had changed and I knew that it would NEVER be the same again. I felt like I had missed something. I wanted more and I didn’t know where to find it. And honestly, I didn’t even know what it was that I needed. I just knew I wasn’t finished. Not yet.
Two years ago I was invited to try Crossfit. I had no idea what it was but I knew I had never tried it before. I wasn’t really sure what to expect but I can tell you it was far worse than anything I could have even imagined. I hated it because it was hard. I felt like throwing up afterwards and I could not move for an entire week. It pushed me harder than I have ever. I decided to give it a few more chances. I realized that this was it. This is what I was missing.
My goals still seemed so far away and almost unattainable. However, I learned that it had to be more than just a goal or a dream. I had to make a lifestyle change. I had never worked so hard or had been this motivated to be a better version of myself. I knew my body wouldn’t come back over night and it most definitely would not be easy. What really kept me going was the unending motivation and encouragement I received from everyone. David, my coach, really knew what he was talking about. He wasn’t one of those coaches that just throws you in and makes you play catch up. He taught me technique with every movement and why we do the things we do.
Throughout my two years of Crossfit, I have overcome many PR’s. I have accomplished pull-ups, toes-to-bar, double unders, 30” box jumps, handstand push-ups, and beating my own coach at 100 burpees for time.
Sometimes people see me and think that I have always been “skinny” or “strong” or “healthy” or “motivated.” But what people don’t realize is that I struggled just like every other human being out there who has met a challenge in their life. There were mornings that the snooze button got the best of me or that box of cupcakes that were brought to me in the office were completely devoured. I know how it feels to be the worst version of myself. I chose to let that worst version of my self be the very worst it will ever be.
I am here to say that with hard work, determination, and the support of everyone I know, I have far exceeded my goals of achieving a healthy lifestyle. I never even thought of becoming this strong. The word “skinny” is no longer attractive to me. I want to be stronger. Strength is more powerful than one can even imagine and only you can find that strength and build on it. You don’t have to do it alone.
On top of hitting PRs and accomplishing movements I never thought I could do, I became friends with every single person I work out with and I can’t even begin to describe the amount of love and respect that we all have for one another. We have become more than just friends. We are a family. Even on the worst of days, I can enter what looks like a warehouse, and be filled with nothing but positive energy, warmth, and determination, as the biggest smile smears across my face.
I am getting stronger every day and I’ve realized that I will never be done at bettering myself. This year, I plan on hitting another milestone of achieving deeper ring dips, consistent chest-to-bar, and muscle ups. So now it’s my turn to invite you to try Crossfit and make a lifestyle change that will help you create the best version of yourself!”